Back to me giving yall personal stuff about my life. My Moms did some real fucked up shit to my aunt recently, and even though i try to stay outta arguments and shit i was heated because my mother is always starting some shit within the family. Like that time she told me my pops wasn't my pops. I guess she was taking the anger she had for him out on me. The fucked up thing is i went all my life wondering if he was my pops, not that i care cause he's still my father, he's still the guy i know as POPS - (which i call him) - and was semi-there for me as a father figure.
I know Semi there sounds kinda fucked up but hey blog world I'm about to spill secrets about me: I'm adopted. Yep, but don't worry it's not by some rapist dude and his wife or some abusive bitch who treats me worse than she treats her biological kids. I was one of the lucky people who got adopted by my loving, caring, funny, real, charismatic, Gangster, grandmother. Neither one of my parents were there for me. Yep and I'm not some psycho killer drug addicted prostitute or some other fucked up shit like that.
My mom's is a touchy subject and i still don't like to talk about her, lets just say the 80's fucked alot of people up, and ripped alot of families apart. So she recently came back into my life when i was like 16 years old. 16??? Yeah i know by then i ain't want shit to do with her and already had crucified her for her demons and what she had did to me, my brothers, and sisters. She deprived me of a perfect childhood so i hated her.
I don't hate her anymore i just tolerate her now, I'm patient with her and though she did us dirty, i love her because she's my mother and because i eventually realized that i cant blame her and blaming her would only stress me out the rest of my life. I forgave her, and though they say never forget i decided to forget it too. Remembering would have made me still have a certain degree of resentment towards her. I figured she brought me into this world and she's my mother ..Kinda like Frankie (Keyshia Cole's Mother) said on the show the other night "Obey The Laws Of The Land, Respect Your Mother"
Back On Topic Now that you somewhat understand our relationship. So my aunt has two older sons and one younger one. My aunt's Oldest son just had a beautiful baby girl. So my mom's took the baby to my grandmother's house and when my Aunt's oldest son's father (Tony) came to pick my mother and the baby up to transport them back to East New York (Brooklyn) from My Grandmother's House (Queens) my mother started saying all kinds of fucked up shit to him like he wasn't a good role model and how my aunt's new boyfriend was a better role model for the baby and he wasn't shit - blah blah blah. Tony (My aunt's baby father) does so much for my grandmother and our family. He LOVES my grandmother and that's why i respect him because he has nothing but the utmost respect for her. He was mad, that shit made me mad, my aunt mad, and everybody else mad.
Like i said .....she's the fucking queen of controversy. This ain't the first time she started some shit in my grandmothers house. I be wanting to fight her, because my grandmother sacrificed EVERYTHING to raise kids that she didn't have.
So i guess we know whose going to be fighting at the dinner table this thanksgiving, My Mother and Aunt, My Mother and Me, Or My Mother and Tony, and if it ain't thanksgiving, it'll definitely be Christmas or new years.