"Relationships are never a threat/'cause I'll Erase the history and act like we never met."

--Joe Budden - Dear Diary (Mood Muzik)

How Hot is it that This Dear Diary's Quote is The Name Of A Joe Budden Song Called Dear Diary?

This quote means alot to me, I will say i've had my share of heartbreaks. Its sad when you can fall so hard for someone where you start believing their lies. Its sad when you Can Love so hard, and show and express that love non-stop, You can be down for that someone and they can turn around and treat you like their worst enemy. Whats even sadder is when that person who was dealt the fucked up hand no longer cares, no longer believes in love, no longer believes in the fundamentals of a relationship and gives up on trying. That's sad as well.

Well i been through alot emotionally with the whole dating thing and I've gotten to the point where i get over things quickly. Friendships mean alot to me but when a friend of many years does something that i think is wrong i don't care about cutting them off. Relationships are never a threat, Meaning even if someone threatened me with not talking to me, breaking up with me, or something else, i don't feel threatened, fuck it don't talk to me. I'll erase the history and act like we never met, I WONT CARE. I'll pretend just like i don't know you, walk past you in the streets, ignore phone calls like its nothing.

I was never like this before i was always very forgiving..

This has also affected how i date: I don't take ANYTHING most guys say serious I do something to make them go away because i don't want to date them, I think ALL RELATIONSHIPS come to an end, Divorce, break up, friendship, WHATEVER. Same Goes For Jay..... I said i would but I Don't Even want to talk about the whole "Hiding A Girl In His Room" Incident. She's a dumb girl in the house peeking out the window while he talks to his ex... she doesn't feel kinda disrespected? Whatever i don't know. He's silly for hiding her in the house thinking i cared and would go off. WHY WOULD I? I'm over it. I will say that some guys think that girls just CANT get over them. You can be over it, So over it that you opted out of your feelings for a friendship.

Something I Realized, Friendships don't work with Ex's. NO EX can be your friend. It doesn't matter that I Have Known Him, and dated him for years. NOPE, some people aren't fit to be in your life but for some odd reason theirs an invisible force that makes them impossible to get rid of.

WHY? I don't know, I just know that he's here and it feels like he's not going away. I do however feel that we wont ever go back.

ABOUT THE WHOLE OSCAR GRANT THING

Some of you know how i feel about Cops Killing Citizens, Some of you may not. I think its terrible and I'm angry just like alot of other people are however all the bullshit about "NYers Aint do shit when Sean Bell Got Killed But Us West Coast People Don't Play That Shit" Needs To STOP

Come to a complete HALT.

DON'T GET ME WRONG. I will never down a coast because frankly i don't care, who the hell am i to do that and why should i care to do it what will i gain? NOTHING. With that being said i want you all to know that NO we did NOT go into our own communities like the people in Oakland are doing and fuck our own shit up. They go into the neighborhoods where they live or where other minorities Live and set things on fire etc.

Now when your neighborhood is burned down and you've burned down the property of innocent people, and you have ruined black owned businesses, and you end up in jail WHAT HAVE YOU ACCOMPLISHED?

Bottom line is Not even Malcolm X could get away with his By Any Means Necessary Quote, and eventually he Educated himself. When black people educate themselves and play the game like these people do maybe we'll get somewhere. Stop choosing to be ignorant and proving white people right. With That Being said KNOW YOUR RIGHTS. I mean that shit is in text books, Library books, Encyclopedia's and other places OPEN A BOOK THIS YEAR. Thank you.